Wednesday, August 31, 2011


Last Sunday as I was sitting in church I wondered how different my life would have been had I been a Christian back in high school, devout and diligent enough to attend service each Sunday morning despite the staying out late habits I had back then. Instead, I was as my friend Duane characterized me, "irreverent," one who liked to poke fun at religion and those who adhered to it.

I admire the teenagers and young adults I see in church each week who make it a point to willingly attend service. That's a time when there's plenty of diversions that get in the way, even the desire to catch up on some rest and sleep in.

Of course it is what it is and I was just not that person back in high school or college but I wondered what if.

That's the time when a lot of people become disillusioned - they complain about the hypocrisy, the way they see people really behave even though they are supposed to be "Christians." Then they leave the church. That's understandable, although hypocrisy is by no means confined to Christians, religion, or to any one group - it is pervasive and universal. If we choose to follow other people, then we're bound to be disappointed at one time or another. Our standard should be doing what pleases God, and the way we behave is between us and Him.

Anyway, I'm not trying to be preachy or anything. I was thinking I might have saved myself all the times of insecurity and wanting to fit in and trying to figure out how to be someone that I wasn't, because I'd have more peace in being myself.

Maybe.. but on the other hand, to paraphrase the beginning of chapter 3 of the book of Ecclesiastes, there's a time and season for everything under heaven. High school and college just weren't those times for me - I wouldn't have been ready; I was too immature. God has His timing. Like I said, it is what it is and the past is the past but there's still what lies ahead.

I don't mean to start sounding profound or anything either.. I'm just spouting off some thoughts. Last Sunday was the time to be thinking about a different path in life had I been a different person back in my school days.

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