Saturday, January 17, 2009

Outdoors

Yesterday Julie and I met with an insurance agent to discuss long-term care insurance. After what happened with my folks last year and their now being at Keiro, we figured it would be a good idea to stop talking about how it might be a good idea to look into it and actually do something about it - like actually look into it.

So that's what we did. Now we are waiting to get some quotes.

Later in the afternoon I took my dad to a cardiologist appointment. He said they didn't do much; the doctor asked some questions then disappeared and the nurse did the rest - checked blood pressure, temperature and did an EKG. When he came out, I was told they wanted to schedule him for three tests, one of which would take about 3-4 hours.

After I got home (driving back from Keiro at 5:00 pm on a Friday afternoon was no picnic) my dad called and said he didn't want to take those tests, and in fact he said he won't take them. He said they're a waste of time - he's so old already (he'll be 91 soon), he asked what's the point?

My parents have really slowed down over the past couple of years, understandably so given their age. Changing environments from their house to a care facility has been a big undertaking for them. Today I wondered how I would feel should I get to be as old as they are. What kind of life would I be leading?

I'd be on the computer as happy as can be, I laughed to myself. But seriously, with the health problems that will set in and an eventual inability to be independent, how would I feel about that? Not only that, but being concerned about Julie's health as well.

Of course we never know what is going to happen tomorrow, so all of these questions I asked myself are big "if's." When The Who sang, "hope I die before I get old," do they feel the same way now as they did then? Would I cling to life in every way I could, being afraid to die?

Well, I really don't know. I think I'd have to get there and then see how I felt. We think and say a lot of things about the future but who knows how we will really think and feel when it becomes the present. I've always had difficulty conforming to regimentation.

Then I thought about the long-term care insurance. If we went ahead and purchased it, how would I feel if we ever had to use it?

Anyway, that's what was running through my mind on Friday.






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